I guess this is going to be a Tired Tuesday post. It’s Tuesday. I’m tired. But one must keep one’s spirits up. At least, I am trying to do so. For the main reason, I feel I should not be a burden on others with my anxiety and depression.
Earlier today I went for a walk to the post office. I took my Tablet with me, thinking to take some cheerful spring pictures. Alas, the wind blew coldly and I was disinclined to make any stops. I was skeptical of my ability to get good pictures in any case.
Oh dear, this is not a cheerful post, despite my best intentions. Well, we are many of us struggling with our emotions these days. These days have such a weird, unnatural quality, and the future is impossible to predict. Additionally, I am feeling a great amount of guilt about how little I am accomplishing during this period of enforced inactivity.
However, it does me no good to dwell on these negative thoughts. What did I just say in the first paragraph about keeping my spirits up? Yes, I am trying to do so.
One thing I can feel kind of sort of happy about is that I have made a blog post. Perhaps not one of my best, but one cannot always meet the highest standard, can one? Or can one? Could I in fact meet the highest standard every day if I tried? Discuss amongst yourselves.
I think a lot of us are just emotionally exhausted. Fear and anxiety can take a toll on you. We haven’t worked in two weeks and I wracked up thousands on medical bills. I keep staring at them, wondering what I’m going to do. Be kind to yourself and don’t worry about having bad days. We all have them. We will take your posts, cheery or otherwise. 🙂
I really feel quite guilty at being down. Compared to other folks, I am sitting pretty. But I will take your advice to be kind to myself and hope you are doing the same.
Posts like these are important. In 100 years time, even in 500 years time, they will be the ‘history’ studied by scholars who want to know about life during ‘The Great 2020 Virus’.
Many thanks for following my blog. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
Thanks for the comment, and the encouragement!